New Comings...

I'm getting closer to where I wanna be. The ex is leaving in two weeks. I finally got the job I went to school for, and I makea really comfortable wage. I've come across a man that is worth all of me. Things are looking up, but of course could be better. Jus updating my blogger. My drama up next. Lol. I always got drama.

Moving Day

I've decide to let bigons be bigons. I'm scared about this move. I never thought I'd get the guts to do it. I figured maybe he'd move out on his own. I like everything strategrically planned. I have no plan, no idea where I'm going. Few places I could go. I could get another apartment but I need to be financially stable befor I get out there on my own. I hate to need people, but I need them more than ever.

I can't continue on like this. I think I'm more concerned because I know he has no where to go. But he's been knowing for months that I fed up. No change. Shyt swim or sink. I can't keep being nice getting myself hurt. Plus I'm interested in someone for the first time, in a long time. I can't expect this man to be serious, when I'm laid up. I have to close this chapter in my life to move forward.



But I'm moving. Wish me luck on my journey!!

Sponser or Lover...

When coming it comes to life situations I'm almost always alittle undecided.


I gotta nigga willing to pay my bills. He's in a relationship and I don't care. We spend time together and he'll pay my rent.And he ain't no sapp ass nigga. He's the type I could see myself with. More like I could see him getting me to the next level. But I ain't the type of chic that likes to depend on a man. I could never replace her, just be a addition to the team. If I ain't sitting bench I can play along. Digg that. I honsetly do like him though..

But I'm obessed with someone. He's my everything. Like I feel like he's my soul mate. But I could never date him. I could nver date someone I'm head over heels for. Doomed for my destruction. I gotta be level headed in a relationship. I know I would be to dangerous. I've learned never love someone more than they love you.

So how do I play this one out. Get my rent paid and fall dangerously in love. Or fuck emm both and be independent. Do I fall in love. everyone needs real love. Do I fuck with the man in a relationship and break up his already broken home? I dono man.

Lesbo Nation

Man in my part of town there's Lesbos everywhere. Where did they come from? I know Seattle is like the 2nd or 3rd highest rates for gays, but I don't believe all these Lessies. Most these girls I know are jsut starving gor attention. It's almost like a trend right now. The niggas up here are crappy and don't know how to treat women. I don't blame them, I blame the women.
That don't mean be a Lessie. Get some standards, that simple. It's like some type of executive decision. Did I miss the announcement. These bitches been sucking dick for 22 yrs and now you eat pussy. But some these girls done fucked half the town and now all that's left is the fee's. I dono I love da peen too much to be licking coochie. I can't wrap my mind around it. I was programmed to suck dick. And Ima keep sucking.lol

Cornie dudes...

I met this guy on Friday at the club. He was alittle chubby but he clearly had money driving a Jag. So I proceeded to give him my number. After the club he asks me can he take me to breakfast. I road with my friend so I had her drop me off to him. We ended up going to the I-hop. Just in case he started acting stupid I could walk home. I lived less then a mile away.

Like usual the mans all in personal business. He asks "who you stay with". I say " with my ex". He asks " do you guys still be fucking". I say " yes". I hate when people ask me that question. And I always say yes we're still fucking cause why lie. I don't know you, you don't know me who cares. Really I do it for shock value. Let's be honest. I think its a stupid question to be asking.

Then he's telling me how he takes care of his women. Blah Blah Blah. About his cars,money. He's gonna get my nails and hair done. I don't care. If you wanna impress me show me something. All that talk about what your gonna do don't mean shyt to me. Pay my rent. I could careless about your car because I ain't driving it.

Then he starts talking bout how sexy I am. My lips are big and my ample breast. He says " I bet you have big black nipples" I said well I ain't white so they there black you wanna see. And I pulled my tittie out at the table real quick. LMAO. Now I'm usually classy. I'm drunk and really think he's lame. So I'm not tryna impress him. I couldn't just jump in the bed with a man I just met. So all these sexual advances is just turning me off.

So then on his way to drop me off he has to stop at Walgreens to pick up a prescription. The man says something about make sure she blah blah didn't care. So after he gets the meds he says I'm picking up some meds for my hommies prego girl. He gives me this long ass story, as if he owes me a explanation. So now I know he lieing.

He drops me off swearing I'ma be his girl. This nigga barely know me. How could I possibly be the one. This why I don't date guys my age.

Is he serious?

After the club, a man took me breakfast. He was a little chubby, but he had swagg. I can appreciate personality over looks anyday. Well he's tryna hook me line and sinker. Most mean think because they tell me I'm beautiful to be so dark I'll be head over heals. For one I'm brown complexed. And SECOND dark is beautiful that's a wack ass line. Which is another story. He tells me, I know what you need and I can handle that. Ima get your hair done, nails, and all that.


Look I speak for a real women when I say I can pay for that shyt.. Now if you can pay my rent hit me. I got grown ass bills that need big payments. If you can't do that, keep it pushing. This Qoute on qoute dark skinned women needs more then a 100 dollar hairdo. When a man can do something for me that I can't pay for myself then we got something to talk about. Until then the saga continues like Star Trek...


Thanks and good night....

dont call me ma.

I hate to be called MA, mommy, mom. I'm not your damn mom and I don't got no kids. And I mos def don't want to have your kids. That be killing the mood. That's how I end up accidently losing your number.

I don't believe in calling a man daddy. I know who my dad is. You didn't help create me and you ain't ever gone be my sole provider, so lose the call me daddy.

Now sex, that's a different story. Ill stroke your ego alittle..

Is he serious?

I got a random txt at like 8 o'clock in morning. Which is weird, anybody that know me know don't call before 1, or you'll get the answer machine. I'm at school so I txt back " What's up". I ususally play it off a little to see if I can figure it out. The txt goes something like this goes.

Him: nothing jus seeing what's up wit chu, bout to touch down
Me: where you coming from?
Him: Mississippi
Me: that's what's up what u doin down there
Him: visiting, what you doing up this early
Me:who's this
Him:Webbie
Me: you must got the wrong number, I don't know no Webbie
Him: I don't think I got the wrong number

Now I know I gotta know this person anybody know me know that. So at lunch I hit him up.
I find out it's this dude I use to fuck with a few yrs back. But his name is totally different. It took me awhile to figure out why he was going by Webbie.Now why the hell would a grown ass man wanna be called another grown ass man's name? He ain't even no hot ass rapper to even want to be imaging. I guess they resemble eachother some, but seriously. He was a old friend so I excused the lameness. Then he started talkin bout when could he see me. "Maybe later" I told him. Then I thought about it, changed me mind. The whole Webbie thing showed his immaturity, no need to carry on ca conversation with him. I know what he wanted and it wasn't happening..

Where's lil Kim at?

Where you at?


Can you please sit this Nicki character down?


What happen to your face?

Better than thou.. Muaaw?

I heard someone at work whisper that I think I'm better. Then someone else goes we all equal everyone shit smell the same. Well let me start by saying my shyt is better. I can't member the last time I shitted and there was a stitch in the air. Digg that bitch. Ha. But I'm way to humble for that. I could never be better than anyone vice versa. I know this because at anytime you could be in the same situation. So watch who you talk about cause yo ass might end up on the same shitter.

But if you think I'm better than you, then maybe I am. Bitches was whispering it n shyt. Cornie. Mad cause they can't do what I do. Its hard being this dysfunctional....

the sports bar by the house

I hate my apt. I gotta move a.s.a.p... It's small as fuck, I can barely fit my couches and dinning room set in there. No washer or dryer and they charge me 720. WTF! N my upstair headaches act like they ain't ever heard young jeezys c.d.. They play it all fucking day. I guess that's pretty cheap in the city that never stops raining.


The only thing I'll miss is the bar by my house. How fucking awesome is that?I get pissed off, I walk to the bar, stumble back. No driver needed. Only thing is it be pretty dead, but besides that Pam makes good ass drinks. I mean damn what more could I ask for? On a dead night shell make us (me and loser Ex)Grey Goose and cran's for 4.50.

O.K. these big buffalo bitches are surrounding me like they got problems. Gorilla don't wanna see my fist or dog mase. Ha .. I gotta carry mase just in case one of them damn racoons wanna get down.

Gotta check ya lata..

Facebook

Why mofos(the only curse word I don't use) always getting so personal on facebook?

What's on your mind: my herpes is flaring up today.

Like come on TMI. Now I can't lie, I'm a noisy muthafucka and I suck up the drama like a tampon. But sometimes I check facebook and be like come on. One chick posted "I feel like crying". Bitch go cry already! Then you know people act concerned but are really jus be nosiy. What's wrong, she says nothing. Another case of a attention whore. Ok I gotta get off this facebook for I post some nasty ass shyt to hurt her feelings.

N why people always updating they dating status.I swore facebook was about networking. This ain't Eharmony.com stop sending me "what's up" messages to my indox.

At tha club

I'm at the sports bar bloggin. Wow. But look, bitches need to realize don't talk shit cause the other bitches friends are always some where. Guess what? I'm that bitch... Lol.. Yea gucci... clearly I'm drunk..

My New Years Resolution or whatever...

So some say that having a NY resolution is stupid. I heard this chick say " I can't wait to start seeing these changed people". Well personally I feel a NY resolution is a test to see your motivation and progress. It's setting a goal, and seeing can you accomplish it in 365 days..Last year I said I would go to school and I would move out on my own. I did just that! Every year your life should be progressing. Next year I shouldn't be in the predicaments I am now. Where's the growth? You can't mentally be growing doing the same ole' same ole'. Now if your happy with that, excuse me... But I gotta be flier then that.

Even if your happy with your lifestyle, career, and family, there is always something you could be pursuing to make a better you. Even if it's smoking one less cig a day, hey your lungs, and the people around you lungs would a appreciate it!every year should be better then the last... Work on it people...

Now for the simpleton. Just let that fly over your head....