Lame ass EX boyfriend.....

So this fucking bastard comes to the mall with me to discourage me even more with my new years outfit. See I don't like to look like everybody else so I try not shop at the same stores majority of bitches shop in. Well I know what I wanna look like, but I haven't quite found the item I'm looking for.

I have gained like 30 ponds. I can't lie it does depress me some. I'm 5'4 ,usually size 5. But in the past two years I've been going up the chart, i'ma size 9. The only o.k. thing about the weight is it's all over not jus my stomach or legs, plus I'm muscularly built so I'm jus really thick wit a little gut. I'm tryna lose the weight but I barely eat as it is.. I mean damn am I suppost to eat un salted crackers n shyt. I've lost about 10 pounds barely eating and working out. I'm jus not use to dietig and watching what I eat. I think it's my IUD. The doctor says it not, I think it is. Medicine is a science doctors don't know everything.. believe me I know.. Back to the story..

I try this boyfriend jacket on.. I'm feelin it, but I'm tryna be a little bit more sexy. Well I try on this black shirt, wide short sleeves, one side can sit off the shoulder, little black jewels side or whatever. It's a cute everyday shirt, NOT new years,new boo shirt. Well my ex is like "Your trippin what's wrong with the shirt"? I'm like "That shirt screams I gained 15 pounds". He keeps tryna tell me he likes it, as if he's paying for it. I say " I'm tryna be sexy not look chubby" he goes your gonna look chubby not matter what you wear". OMG that really hurt my feelings. I left the mall cause I was pissed off.

Like it wasn't really that he said that hater ass shyt to piss me off. But I mean damn, do I really look chubby. It's like confirming my insecurities, that I'm not as hot as I use to be. Then later he says I didn't mean it. Fucking punk..

I'm still gonna rock out new years. What a hoe. N when is moving out?